I've been on edge a little today. And another thing, why is it, that no one around this fucking office listens to a damn word I say? I swear, I'm not the idiot that everyone thinks that I am. Yes I'm a geek, I know that. Yes, I like working under stressful conditions. Yes, I like working here (well, it's easy to work here I'll admit), but damn it, if I ask you to go meet someone in the front office because I picked up your phone and took your message, then do it. I don't expect you to look at me like a dumb shit that's acting like he's on speed, and ignore what I've asked you! Damn it, I took a message for you, I gave it to you, don't ignore me when my ass is on the line too! I don't know how important it is or not so I'll treat it as a high priority, don't you think you should do the same?

Charles has been asking a lot about the possible opportunity in Redlands today. I told him that I wasn't looking for a job, but I wouldn't pass up one either if I think it has better opportunities than my current line of work.

My god daughter's third birthday is tomorrow, so I have to go to that. I'm not a religious person. As a matter of fact, I don't have any intention of really enforcing any religion upon myself. When Charles and Anessa asked me to be the god father to their first born, what the hell do you think I said? Of course I will be! Besides, I'm doing the whole god father thing the best I can. I don't need a religious background to love someone and want to take care of them in case something happens to her parents!

There is no company Party this year. Something about saving money. Well shit, twenty or so of the highest paid people here have either quit, or have been laid off. Thats at least sixty grand a month more cash going to the president's pockets so he can buy his new $750,000 car. Dick. Why dont you take care of some of your other employees instead of being the greedy impersonal snob you are! Crap, I've talked to you a total of 5 times, and each time, you dont know my name, or you don't even know if I work for you in the first place! Why don't you get to know your employees a little better? And why dont you give us a little incentive for wanting to work for you for crying out loud?

This entry is from the damn blog. Posted by evin at 3:20PM

I got a phone call from an old co-worker last night. He and a few of my old co-workers have started up a new business for telecommunications in Redlands. I'm going to see him, and the new facility on Friday the 31st. Now I've known this guy for the last 3 years, since I've started working at Spectrum, and he and I are on the same level when it comes to an intellectual conversation, so that's a nice change. Since around here, I'm one of the few computer wise people.

With any luck, I'll like it, and see what I can do to further my career.

Everyone around me is getting ahead. My best friend Charles is currently having two companies fighting over him. So it's going to be a salary war for him. Shawn and Benton are moving along with Shawn going to Cal Poly Pomona and Benton with his new house hunt. I want to move on with my life.

I feel like I'm standing still, and it's a feeling that I truly hate. I need to get everything back on track, finish school, and get a career started. I'm not tired of drafting per say, but I am tired of being in a job that has no room for improvement. When I was at Aurora, I was only there for four months before they were considering me for a supervisor position (DSA Coordinator). Four months, and that is the itme I need to show someone what I can do. When I was working for Microsoft WebTV, I graduated technical training at the top of my class, was put on the floor to take calls, and within the first month, I received numerous written compliments. My supervisors got wind of it and put me on the floor as a temp supervisor. I took the billing course, and became a floor supervisor. All of which happened within 4 months. I've been here at Spectrum for over two and a half years, and only got a fifty cent raise after 14 months. That, I feel, is absolute bullshit. I work my ass off here and I go out of my way to help people, and I get shit on for it.

I am going to keep an eye open for new opportunities.

This entry is from the damn blog. Posted by evin at 10:28AM